There are times when things that we cannot control makes life more difficult than it should be. Other times, we screw ourselves.
I have felt like a failure in life since December 2013. I don’t have a full-time job. I don’t feel that I am where I want to be in life. I see my siblings that are doing well and I see that I can’t compare with them. I suck.
I have wondered why I don’t feel successful in life. The answer is not that far away: If I delay my “adulthood” I will not have to face the reality of it’s implications. I don’t want to live my adulthood knowing that something is fundamentally wrong with me. I don’t want to become successful under what my name represents. I don’t want to live as me.
I sabotage my progression to adulthood everyday. I sabotage my journey to success in life.