When God decides to teach what’s it like on the other side.

So I have made several blogs comparing what I was like in my adolescence and what I’m like as an adult. Because of yesterdays phone call with the teenager, I have realized that God might be instigating experiences with adolescents that mirror those that I provoked with the adults of my day when I was their age. It feels like a test, a test of endurance, patience, tolerance, and a test of whether I will react better than the adults of my adolescence.

Before yesterday’s phone call, I did get another one of these tests back in 2011 when I was tested in my transition between a “simple young person” (simple joven) to a adult, a young adult. This test I did pass, given the fact that God confirmed my adulthood and that the adolescent stopped this behavior after that day (thank God).

Now, I’m the adult on a type of interaction where I used to be the adolescent. It feels weird, but I guess this was going to be inevitable. My being is trying to cause friction, because I know that these interactions will put me in uncomfortable situations that my selfish side wants to avoid. My rational mind knows that these are the situations that will make me grow as a person and as a Christian. They are also the situations that are necessary to endure to get closer to accomplishing that which I was called to do.

I just have to be aware that it’s not just for my benefit, but that the lives of those kids will be better from interacting with me. I know what it’s like to be in their side, and what is needed to ensure that they are satisfied with the interactions so that they don’t have to seek it through other, maybe less healthy means.

In conclusion, I know that God’s tests are meant for passing, so that gives me some comfort. I can pass them, I just have to figure out what the test is and how to answer them.

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Adult-teenager phone calls.

I just found out what it feels like to be the adult in a adult-teenager phone call… a really long phone call. As an INTJ, this is really draining. What I can say is that there is a conflict in my mind between my desire to hang up because I want some me time for myself and just pushing through my emotions so that the kid can have a healthy positive experience in his life.

Thankfully, I only have to deal with one kid calling. It could be worse.

My father on probation’s classic quote

“If you turn something on, it will work better.” This was said by my father on probation when he tried to use the clicker while it was off on his sermon like conference.

This can be taken under two perspectives:

  1. Like a Paris Hilton dumb quote.
  2. Like a Colin Mochrie genius comedy quote.

It doesn’t matter to me what the best way to take it. What matters to me is that now I can joke about his classic quote at will. He is so screwed.

When I realize that someone else is preaching content that God gave me months ago.

Today is the second time that my father on probation gave a sermon and preached content that God gave me months ago. The first time that this happened, I didn’t think much of it. This time my reaction was more intense and with a negative tone. I wondered whether this was happening because the content wasn’t coming out of my mouth, so God needed to move someone else.

Today, I feel that the popular belief that you should wait for God to open doors is somewhat of a BS belief. It’s more of a don’t do anything belief than anything else. The problem is that insisting a lot might have the same effect. It’s like I can’t win.

I also know that demographic characteristics play a factor in church politics. My father on probation is going to get more preaching opportunities than me because he is a lot older than me and he is a minister in the church. It doesn’t matter that I have more years in the faith than he does. He is seen as a adult and I’m not.

If someone tells me that I am crazy and wrong for saying that demographic characteristics play a factor in church politics, that person needs to get their heads out of their ass and see what is going on. I know that the fact that I grew up in the church is negatively affecting how much I can do there. It also doesn’t help that I’m an INTJ: a personality that is uncommon in the church and my INTJ traits are looked down upon.

Even with all that against me, I don’t want to repeat the pattern of getting something from God, not saying it because I don’t get opportunities, and then seeing someone else say the same thing that God told me. I don’t know how to not repeat the pattern, though.

New Website.

I have been trying to create a health education website for close to 5 months now. After trying a web host and not being able to publish, I decided to try Sitebuilder because I saw a review that Sitebuilder was the best. After trying to transfer a domain name from the web host unsuccessfully, I decided to go with a domain name created with Sitebuilder. Now, I have successfully created and publish a website: infoedsa.com. This site has the purpose of providing health information using health education tactics. This site has three content-based sections:

  1. “Health Education information”: where models, theories, strategies, and planning, administration, and evaluation in health education are discussed.
  2. “Health topics”: where general health topics are discussed
  3. “Health Education in the Bible”: where I take the theory that I discuss in the Health Education section and show cases in the Bible where the theory can be applied successfully.

If anyone wants to check it out, here is the link: infoedsa.com. I do have to warn that the content is in Spanish, because the primary audience is a Spanish speaking audience.

Feeling uncomfortable in a unknown situation.

Today I am at a training session for a counselors convention that I will be working at next week. Not much of a training, given that I am writing a blog post. I don’t know what to do. This place is so foreign. I want to leave and be by myself until the training starts, but I don’t think that it’s a good idea. The only thing that I can think of is that it will only last for a little while… A little while that feels like an eternity. A fact about introversion starts to become really apparent: just because you know that something will last a short period of time and the consequences will be worth it, doesn’t mean that the process will not feel any less torturous.