As an INTJ, I tend to use logic and intuition to process everything… and like my friend says: everything is everything (it sounds catchier in Spanish). In the Puerto Rico evangelical church culture, which comes from the US evangelical church culture because of our history, emotion and sensory experiences are the norm. Anything logical and abstract is looked down upon as worldly.
I as a Christian INTJ need to think things through to understand them. My Christian walk is no exception. When I have decided to live a reactive life towards something, God is the first one to reprimand me. He doesn’t want me to live a reactive life because it is in thinking things through is the way that God teaches me the biggest lessons that I have learned in life. I also make a lot of mistakes when I stick to just reacting to life.
When I have received words of knowledge/prophetic words in my earlier years as a Christian, it usually goes to my prophetic memory. I also tend to think that prophetic words are not for right now, like a 9th grader thinks about graduating high school. In recent years, I am getting the understanding that the word is not for later and that its fulfillment is close.
About a year and a half ago I was at a 12 hour fast retreat at my church that was done for the young adults of my church. I went there because I was asked to be the musician. I knew that the activity was catering to a group of 18-28 year olds who were more mystical in their brand of Christianity. I knew that I was going to feel too normal for the crowd and that the one who coordinated the whole thing was going to take the mystical side if any friction happened there. I had the expectation that the activity was going to be torture for me and that I wasn’t going to get anything out of it.
During the activity, 3 people preached to us. One in the morning, one mid-day, and one in the afternoon. All had the mystical brand of Christianity. After each sermon there was a ministry session. All three prayed for me at some point, but I only remember what 2 of them stated. I won’t go into many of the details of how I got prayed for, but I will say that the first preacher wasn’t around when the third preacher prayed for me and vice versa.
The first preacher stated, among other things: I gave you intelligence; not to be quiet but to speak and share what I gave you to the church/world. As soon as he ended this statement, my internal reaction was: you only said intelligence and didn’t include wisdom. I wanted God to include wisdom in the statement.
The third preacher stated, among other things: I gave you intelligence and wisdom; not to be quiet, but to speak and share what I gave you to the church/world. My first take away was that God listened to the desire of my heart and included wisdom.
None of these preachers know me intimately, so they don’t have as much context to state this. I knew that it wasn’t a coincidence that I was getting the same Word in 2 occasions by 2 people that weren’t around when the other made the statement.
Before the word was given, I knew in my mind I knew that I had to step out of the musician’s area and speak what I had to the church. I felt that preaching was in my future and I had enough content prepared to do so. Yet my standing with church leadership was such that I wasn’t in their radar of potential preachers. Part of it was my fault because of the reputation that I built for myself, part of it was that no one really wanted to work with me because they didn’t understand me. That’s one of the disadvantages of being an INTJ, I guess. There was a difference between what was in my mind of what I was called to do and where other people thought that I should be. What I realized with this word was that God showing that His thoughts were aligned with my thoughts about my future and the sermons that I was preparing.
That was end of 2015, start of 2016. Fast forward to 2018. In February I was called to be part of the Youth Group Committee in my church (the Committee isn’t something that God approves per say, but what it means is that I am publicly one step closer to having full Youth Group leadership). I have also been taken off of the preaching blacklist: I have given one sermon in the first Youth Group service of the year and one Bible study. Both have been given rave reviews by the church.
A week after the Bible study, a deacon with whom I don’t have relationship with stated, among other things: “I liked your Bible study. God has given you intelligence and wisdom. Keep it up.” I immediately recognize the wording in the phrase. My internal reaction was to not show anything regarding this realization.
After the service, another member in the church who I keep my distance because she is touchy feely and has no respect for personal space stated, among other things: “When I was hearing your Bible study I was going along for the ride seeing how I was sowing and reaping in my evangelism activity. God has given you intelligence and wisdom. Keep it up.” I immediately recognize what was going on… and had to tell myself to not react physically at that moment.
I as an INTJ have had the mentality that God can and will speak to me at any moment. He is also someone who will use any means to state things: His Word, a YouTube video, a blog, a sermon… anything. He also will spare no expense in letting me know the culture of His heart. I have learned to always be sensitive to Gods comments. So when I heard the comments, I knew what God was trying to tell me.
Two different people who weren’t around when the other spoke stated the same thing in their manner but using the same wording that God used when the 2 preachers gave their words. I knew what God was doing. He was letting me know: this Bible study is what the fulfillment of the word that I gave you in that retreat looks like… and this is only the beginning for you. It wasn’t a coincidence what happened: A prophetic word was given by two people, and the start of the fulfillment of this word was confirmed by 2 people. None knows about this. None know that they had a role to play in how God operated.